Living Like Animals

Another driving lesson today... wtf? 3 times mati enjin at once when i was driving uphill. Pengsan la my instructor.
Dah lah he is small... a bit bald.. soft spoken man..
WHY I CANNOT DRIVE...nguhuhu.
And there was a boy learning with me too... somehow he reminds me a lot of Irene.
His name is GAVIN.. waa haha of all names. He looks like the typical smart boy. I'm going to rape his identity.. had no time to talk to him but i bet he is waiting for SPM results. Now I feel so old... huhuhu.

I am much happier now because my ears are clearing up, a little bit more then it will come back to normal. Wohoo.. but I have another appointment with the doctor.
And talking about the doctor, he is small sized, totally bold..shiny head, very very very soft spoken.
He knows I cannot hear him, yet still speaks so softly.. i have to ask him to repeat every time he tells me something.

Talking bout my instructor and my doctor.. both small, bald and soft spoken.
And why did my father arrange me to meet small people... I am big ok.
Big i should say because I am.

Fated to work with them. No problem for me. I love small, bald and soft spoken men.
Tickles my heart. HAHA... eeee Amy don't la.

February is here... less than a month to spend time at home before going back to college. Must enjoy every moment of my life now.
Hurts..British duo band. Love their gayness. But i don't think they are. Haha..

I used to dream of becoming a pilot... because I love flying. But i changed my mind thinking that I'll be family-less next time because I cannot find time on land to get married and settle down with kids. In the sky all the time was my dream job, close enough to becoming an Astronaut-my greatest dream job. But yes I was sane enough to know that it is a job with huge responsibilities and at times it is high risk. Imagine the lives of 100++ people.

But since I changed my mind, I decided I should become a doctor. I've always imagined myself as a doctor.. since small ya typical, stethoscope..white coat.. bla and bla.

But you know what?
I wish I could apply for something that doesn't make me stay on earth all the time.
Because today I drove for the very first time. I hate it!! I cannot drive.. I don't like driving.!

Man driving is horrible, not even close to fun.
I should have learned it before I even get for my SPM results before.
It would have been easier to choose the right path.

If I were a pilot, of course I'll be flying an aircraft. My reasons:

1. I don't have to be on land all the time with the cars everywhere, makes me headache.
2. I don't have to worry the corners, parking correctly, 3 point turning and hills.
3. I don't have to worry about traffic jams and all.
4. There is no need of honks.
5. I'll have as much space to fly without worrying of anything behind or in front.

Flying an aircraft is just awesome, so why bother to drive?

But, no difference compared to a doctor's life next time.
1. NO SLEEP.. ZOMBIE
2. NO TIME TO FIND BOYFRIEND
3. NO TIME TO GET MARRIED
4. NO TIME FOR FAMILY
5. NO LIFE.

so Pilot = Doctor.. in many ways.

Maybe doctors should marry pilots.
Both will cheat on each other..
Both will have no time for each other..
Both will come back home feeling tired.
Both cannot sync their time together.
Both will basically have NO LIFE.
Their lives would be amazing.

I want to marry a pilot.

But I know I have chosen the right path.. I still have to learn driving.
It's a basic to capture a pilot's heart, so he can teach me more next time on how to fly his airplane. Haha!

Every night, i had almost no time to blog out my day because I am addicted to playing this game called Shopping Cart Hero 2 at this website.
You see, i googled : what to do when bored?
The first link returned to me was that website where so many flash games that can be played for free.

That's me with my propeller cap which costed me $9000. +0.1 style and +0.1 lift.
The wheels were first steel wheels, free. Then I upgraded to a much better one which cost me $1200 and then this one in this screen shot, $4500.
I bought my first rocket engine for $1800 then upgraded to 2 rocket engines for $7500
And then sometimes i buy groupies to sit in the cart while I make my jump.
But they keep dying because my cart fell..but I am always alive. haha..

After sooo many jumps, about 270 jumps, I manage to college $180000. Enough to buy myself a golden cart, EVERY HEROES DREAM CART.
Wohoo.. awesome.. And my money left was just $6912.
I am too lazy to continue now, since i played it for 12 hours non stop... I am satisfied.


Me with my tricks in the air, in that way i can earn more money.
I love my golden cart, it is god damn expensive for a shopping cart.

Anyway, The Fluffer was a weird movie..it was about a photographer, he fell in love with the famous porn star.. don't watch it coz the ending sucked so bad..wasted my time. hahaha..

I was supposed to stop watching gay themed movies.. but I just downloaded
"I Love You Phillip Morris".
Wow Jim Carey is the main actor. I'm going to watch it in college.. haha. Control temptation Amy.. control.

Yesterday was everyone's day whether you pass or not.. it doesn't matter much.
Most importantly, keep healthy everyone.

Went to the doctor again, he refused to refer me to a specialist because my ears are clearing up already, i'll just have to allow a few weeks for it to recover completely.

My cough never stops since 25th of November last year.. fuck 2 months already you know.
Serious matter.
He said when i breathe, there's some sound.
I have no history of asthma but he said it could be it, so more medicines to eat.
That explains why i experienced chest pains within this 2 months.

And shit what cough syrup he gave me this time, it tasted like chili.. like some weird tasting spice burning my airways..

I'm grateful i passed the requirements to secure me a ticket to India. Thank god so much my closest friend passed to, Andreana congratulations.
All left to worry for now is my health... nguh.

So I have planned a few things to do:

1. Stop sleeping late and start sleeping early, maybe 11 a.m.

2. Stop watching gay-themed movies but continue listening to Linkin Park.

3. Stop drinking cold beverages and ice creams and keep drinking warm/hot drinks only.

4. I know fur can contribute to asthma but there's no way to avoid that so keep playing with my rabbits and bury my face in their fur.

5. Stop dreaming and start listening to my parents.Well, my mum told me not to drink cold water (wtf milk baa.. i want), i refused to listen. My dad said don't eat ice cream.. shit i just had 2 cones last night.

In conclusion, this is all my fault and it is now my responsibility to prevent the chance of getting asthma..
I don't care much bout myself as long as my rabbits are fine. :D
Will be very busy in this few weeks and wtf my IC is totally ripped, must make a new one.

I googled "Air India".. and it returned me these photos..
Wow I am shocked.

And now i'm wondering what they do in Air India's flights.. or they are telling everyone to fly to India because you will find love there. Amazing.. haha.


End up i googled "curry leaves'. Enough to prove my point.

It's 2a.m and finally i feel round 360 nervous.

What's better than feeding your pets with lotsa healthy food?
Massive satisfaction when i see my healthy fat rabbits.
Who cares if i am broke, as long as my bunnies get to eat more than I do, makes me happy.Not my rabbit, random photo i found online.
God this is an example of a lazy bunny.. like mine.
Everytime any of em yawns, i'll put my fingers in it's mouth and tickle it's tongue. So cute!


I was hoping my rabbits would breed when i first bought them.
Seems like there was a gender confusion between them and after 5 years, they never got pregnant. If yes, i would have transformed my backyard into this. Awesome! I don't have to study and just be a rabbit-keeper. Haha.. wish i could jump in that cage and let them jump on me. Omg so cute!!


Ah... this reminds me of my late Momoi...huhu looks exactly like her. *tears*.. :(

Come back Momoi, i need you!

I dream of her at least once in a month ever since she "left".. shows how much i miss her.

I cannot stop listening to LP because i love the eargasms. :D
What a word i found on one of the comments on a Linkin Park video..

So, today i found out that J.lo was actually 41. All these while i thought she was 33 or something. She's glowing in American Idol, i cannot stop looking at her..eyegasm. :D

Oh and there was a contestant i'm looking forward to.
Jovany Barreto.. awesome sexy guy with a beautiful voice..
Ahh...serenade me till i fall asleep and you can do anything you want after that. HAHAHAHA...okay here's the audition. He took his clothes off with Steven and Randy! OMG. delicious!



Who knows, he might be the one. We'll see..hahax\
New Orleans' auditions were much better. *big smile*

New Judges? These are great singers of all time.
Look at Elton John, no question he is super duper talented!
Look at Steven Tyler, god he's a great rocking singer!
Look at Jennifer Lopez, hot, talented latin singer!
Look at Jessica Simpson, she's not fat!
and lastly,
Look at Harry Connick Jr..ear candy heart melting.. you name it!
Omg Harry is god damn hot. I did blog about him last year.. he is such a sweetheart.

American Idol this evening.. must not miss the greatest show on earth!
Well last year I had zero time to watch the tv so i missed the whole season but who cares, I'm sick of Simon.
I am so excited, Steven Tyler and J.Lo are the new judges.. joining the coolest of all Randy Jackson.

Before this, every contestant cared more on whether Simon liked their singing or not. Why??
Haizz.. I don't care I don't care..
We'll see this season.
I'm already in love with Steven Tyler's voice.. but not yet in love with J.Lo. haha..

Oh and one more thing, never ever invite the girl who can't be tamed as the guest mentor.
Come on, Miley Cyrus? she's just an 18-year old kid, I don't think she has enough experience to teach the contestants..not yet because one day she will be a legend. Well.. whatever. Miley is being Miley.

It would have been a little bit better, like 10% better if they invited Taylor Swift but she's more on art and music compared to her voice talent. Still can't deny that she is talented and beautiful. I love her hair...haha
Whatever.. the fairytale princess is always in her own world.

Invite somebody who's multi-talented.. like Mariah Carey, Beyonce, A.R Rahman, Marc Anthony, Keith Urban, Alicia Keys, Anastacia, Cher, Barry Manilow, Lionel Richie and lots more.

And maybe someday, someday they would invite CHESTER BENNINGTON or MIKE SHINODA. hahaha.. who knows.. not everyone knows how talented they are.

Chester sang while playing drums... that must be quite hard to synchronize. Well maybe you can but I don't think i can.

Watch this then.. i love when Chester sings at the end. I don't know what to say, it is very arabic kinda music.


Too many instruments involved in this song, but when it comes to live acts, Linkin Park is always the best. Multi-talented band..
Always impresses me and all LP fans out there. I love Linkin Park so much!
Please just please please! let me watch them live no matter what! I must go to their concert at least once in my life!... still waiting for the opportunity.

Their latest album, A Thousand Suns is very compact and complex..listen to the whole album.
You'll experience something, at least something.
And i heard Iridiscent is the next single.. I cannot wait any longer!

But now I worry more on my results..this Monday.
I am very nervous.

I feel like I am so ugly... *sigh*
So i dug out my old school uniform...
And yeay! I can still fit into it.. ahaha
but it is very tight especially at my hips.. oh no.. this shows how much i could grow within 2 years if i do not control my food.
*Sigh... I am so ugly.


I play chicken beak with my rabbits almost all the time..
How? just shape my fingers into a beak shape and nip nip my rabbits.
Sad that this morning when i woke up, i saw blood all over my rabbit's cage..
Her leg is bleeding.. that brown one. But stopped already.. The sole of her feet peeled off, that's why but I cannot figure out why.


Oh and that's my niece and my sister.
She has curly hair... but much nicer than mine.. hers, big curls..mine, small curls.



Happy Ponggal to all KTTians!
Awesome Ponggal rice, delicious! This year I did not get to celebrate it in college. Last year's celebration by us was awesome!
KTTians are celebrating it now in college. Too bad I'm not there to join them. huhu..

I watched two in-prison gay movies... and came to a conclusion: tragic love story..
Such a sad ending. It was a story of a priest who was in prison for some murder i think so (storyline was complicated), he was in love with the prison guard.
His inmates mocked him most of the time and he struggled to find his way out.
Only his lover (the prison guard) could understand his situation.. being an ex-priest but was locked in prison.
He was released at the end but was killed by his roommate with a cross, while his lover waited outside and watched him dying... he was helpless. Tragic love story.. I hate sad endings.


This is another weird movie.. suddenly these 2 men fell in love..like snap* they are in love and became couple.
So the white guy up there was released but the black guy had 5 years left in prison.
In order to get back to him, the white guy false rob a shop so that he can get back in prison and live his life with his love. Tragic ending. I don't like it.

Watching Coffee Date now. :D

WHAT? a new zodiac?
I love this zodiac thing, but I've been living as a Sagittarius for like 19 years and this year they discovered a new one.
From now on, my star sign is either Scorpio or Ophiuchus, I'm confused now, my birthday is on the 29th of November.
But i love my old star sign...
Astrology is fun.. check yours.

Capricorn: Jan. 20 – Feb. 16
Aquarius: Feb. 16 – March 11
Pisces: March 11 – April 18
Aries: April 18 – May 13
Taurus: May 13 – June 21
Gemini: June 21 – July 20
Cancer: July 20 – Aug. 10
Leo: Aug. 10 – Sept. 16
Virgo: Sept. 16 – Oct. 30
Libra: Oct. 30 – Nov. 23
Scorpio: Nov. 23 – 29
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29 – Dec. 17
Sagittarius: Dec. 17 – Jan. 20

I'm 50/50 supporting and not supporting this thing.
Controversial.

So, I went to the doctor, he said it was because of earwax.
No way, i don't know why but i feel like this is not earwax problem.
He gave me ear drops. I have to apply it for one week in one ear first, then the following week in the other ear.
But i don't seem to find any discharge after I applied the drops, clear drops came out.
That convinced me that this is not the reason why I'm having hearing difficulties.
Shit la, there is no way to calm down.
I've been so patient for like what? 2 months already.. and this is all i get?
I cannot stand this man..
My nose is god damn blocked too..
Every breath i took was so heavy that my body felt like collapsing anytime soon.
What is happening to me? *sigh
I got no where to breathe now, thank god my eyes are functioning well now.

Only 1/2 of my head is working now.. i cannot wait to feel healthy again.
Lord God i want to cry...please give me tears.

So.. just now before i went to the airport in JB, i opened the bathroom door and it bounced back to me. The handle hit me hard and sharp on my left boob bulls eye. Now it hurts a bit inside.. never noticed there was a pail behind the door. nguh...

The flight today was okay, i did not feel any ear pain this time.. Pain-killer was very effective.

Well, this blocked ears must be cured as soon as possible..
I am paranoid to the max, fearful of whatever it is to come.
Flu and cough for 6 WEEKS? Very serious matter... TB is the one i fear most.
The worst thing happened after 6 weeks, my niece is having cough and flu now, so as my eldest sister. As far as i know, my sister has very strong immune system for the past 2 years.
My virus is aggressive and contagious now.
I better not go out in the mean time.

The wonders of nose drops... clears my airways like VROOSHH!
It can be addictive, so I must control myself... after the cough syrup addiction, i don't think i need more drugs.

And one more thing.. to what angle does an airplane should lift up for take off without causing a tailstrike? maximum of 20 degrees for certain airplanes but an average of 15 degrees for the Boeing 737 fleet.
I think some pilots are angle freaks.
After years of observation and experience, pilots would lift up to 45 degrees immediately during take-off if they wanted to.. IF THEY COULD, THEY WOULD DO IT.. I'm not saying that they did... but if they did, they must be GAY. no wonder they are in the COCKPIT!
Straight pilots, (i'm talking bout male pilots) would take it slow. Gay pilots would rush up if possible straight to 90 degrees. Fighting over who is going to be on top is it?

GAY

GAY
(random photos taken from the net, no offense, was just trying to prove my points)

Why should they care about tailstrikes? after all they are in front.

To make things clear, cabin pressure decreases with altitude.. If the angle of take off is large, the rate of increase of altitude will be greater and so as the rate of decrease of cabin pressure.

THE DECREASE OF CABIN PRESSURE IS GREATER IF AND ONLY IF THE INCREASE OF ALTITUDE IS GREATER.
and vice versa. My maths is still good eyy.. haha

They should know, a sudden change in pressure would cause ear-pain to certain people LIKE ME.
I'm sure not many passengers would take decongestants before flying..in MOST cases, NONE.
Only ear-conscious people like me would take decongestants just to prevent the risk of getting punctured eardrums.

The same thing happens during landing.
Air Asia planes descend like what? 20 minutes before landing.. so sudden.
My god, this is not a capsule landing from outer space.. passangers are not astronauts.
Hellooo?? We are talking about a sausage with wings and a tail with over 100 bits of cheese inside.
My advice to all Ear-conscious-ers out there, please choose the best airline for your ears.

But anyway, it is good to be back home.
Rest my body for about 10 days before knowing a life-changing truth.

This post maybe offensive to certain readers, no harm no harm,

phew.. i'm not in kuching yet..
flight was canceled. TWICE today.
so, I'll just sit and wait till the weather gets better.. hahaha
wow and wow..
wow and wow again..
I've never experienced this in my life..
somehow it was funny.

morning flight canceled...
booked for night.. flight canceled also..
but i called air asia before i went to the airport.. they said it is not canceled.. when i reached airport.. cancel pulak..
whatever.. hahaha

i guess number 1 is not so a good number for me... who cares.
so now, looking at the bright side.. i can still go online here..and watch my gay movies too.
hahah ok ciao!

i feel sorry for that skidded plane at KIA runway..
dahla tergelincir.. enjin fail lagi tu...
4 injured as far as i know.
but definitely all of them are traumatized.
I'm so scared now..

AWESOME MOVIE...MUST WATCH! first time i had tears watching a gay-themed movie... rare of me.



Sloppy seconds.. awesome too.. must watch.. hahaha!
I LAUGHED TOO MUCH... OMG ..hahahahaha!!

The was another one i watched but i forgot it's title.. it was about interracial gay love in prison.

When i said professional.. i meant experienced aged doctors maybe around 50 years old plus plus.
So i went to a clinic here in JB.
And so I wanted an aged Indian doctor..MALE..
but it turned out to be ANOTHER FEMALE INDIAN DOCTOR/ INDIAN FEMALE DOCTOR or whatsoever.
Almost all the time i went to a clinic, it was always a female doctor..indian lady..aged..with spectacles...soft spoken...
This was what happened just now at the clinic..

Me: GOOD MORNING.. (blur blur eh it's 4 p.m. shit shit)
Dr: GOOD EVENING (with eyes wide open)
Me: Oh GOOD EVENING (omg shit wtf??..embarassed)
Dr: *looked at me*
Me: *started talking immediately* Oh i have cough and flu for like 1 month already..and both my ears are blocked, i can't hear properly
Dr: *gave me a super shocked face with eyes popped out like a fish* WHAT?
Me: *expected the expression* ah.. i went to see a doctor back in Kuching, the meds i took finished yesterday and it doesn't seem reduce the pain.
Dr: *cooled down* Okay..what medicine did she give you?
Me: some small white pills for cough, white oblong-shaped antibiotic and 2-faced- one-side-yellow-the-other-white decongestant.
Dr: Okay..So..I'm going to give you ah.....*she said something but it was too soft*
Me: Uh what?
Dr: I'm giving you antibiotics, but you have to eat it with food.
Me: Eat with food? like after food or eat with the food I'm eating?
Dr: Eat together with the food..like some piece of meat, u swallow it together.
Me: *Amazing* Okay..
Dr: Because if you eat it after food then you will feel like vomiting.
Me: *WOW,SO AMAZED, CAN BE BULIMIC!* I see I see..ok
Dr: So you have this flu and cough right?
Me: Yaya..
Dr: Because if the passage connecting the nose and the ear is not clear..it won't go away.
Me: Aaaa.. i see.. ok
Dr: So, I'm giving you some nasal drops.. *she started asking the nurse if they have the suitable nasal drops*
Me: *Smiling away*
Dr: If i give you the adult nasal spray.. it will sting in your nose.
Me: *omg shit I'm scared* *nods*
Dr: So I'm giving you this one.. put 2 drops in your nose but be sure that u must lie down with you head tilted backwards
Me: *DEMONSTRATING* like this?
Dr: Yaya..do you have fever?
Me: Ya i did, a month ago just before i got the flu and cough.
Dr: *nods* okay then, about the ear.. they have stopped the production of decongestants...*voice fainted i couldn't hear*
Me: Hah what?
Dr: Really you cannot hear? How does is feel?
Me: It is quite hard for me to hear..sound is dull..like I'm underwater.
Dr: You should go and see the ENT specialist.
Me: Ya, I planned to if it doesn't heal in few days..but I'll be going back to Kuching in a few days time.
Dr: I see, you don't want to see a specialist here?
Me: I don't think i have the time now, I'm occupied tomorrow. *eh tomorrow is sunday..shit*
Dr: I see.. okay. You know the way to clear your nose, take some hot water, and put some vicks in the water and inhale the fumes for a few times.. do it 2 3 times a day. It helps to at least reduce the phlegm inside.
Me: Okay okay..so doctor..is it safe to fly with my ears like this?
Dr: *looked at me, shocked, thinking maybe I have some evil plans* What do you mean if it is safe?
Me: I mean, will the pressure make my ears worse? because i flew here a week ago and it got worse.
Dr: It will be fine..so i think that's it.
Me: It's gonna okay right? RIGHT?
Dr: Yes yes..you may go now.
Me: Thank you so much.. :D

So i waited at the counter, and suddenly that doctor just now ran out of her room and called me..
Dr :"AMY AMY COME HERE FOR A WHILE"
Me: Oh oh okay..
Dr : I just called the specialist and he/she said.. what you can do is take a glass of water and stir some sodium bicarbonate in it..then you try to suck in with ur nose and let go of the water.. do it a few times to cleanse the nose first.. then u take another glass of water and stir some salt in it.. then repeat it like the one before. This will at least clear up your nose.
Me: Ok.. I'll try it.

Wow.. it was amazing how she would call a specialist just to ask about it..

After typing all these, i don't feel the need to post this.. but since I typed it already then let it be.

Oh by the way, XiaXue was so right about people.. She is somebody..i don't know how to say it..but she is herself. I just like her being herself..that's all because it is good to know it. I don't know how many surgeries have she done on herself, but it is awesome.

ahaha.. found this randomly on youtube and it was pretty good.
The reason why i clicked on his videos was that he looks gay..
and finally thinks that he is gay when i see this video.. hahah
worth listening to his version of SOMEBODY TO LOVE.
Much nicer than the monotonous Bieber.

I don't know why but i keep smiling when i see his videos. hahahahaahaha!!
I think it's because of his face.. SEAN PAUL-ish..

After a few days, i just cannot stand it and i have to post this.
I know i have to be patient but how can i help myself?
People keep on telling me to be patient, sabar, sabar,...
SABAR WHAT FUCK YOU!
Things don't always and won't always go as i wanted.
Why?
I just want to go back home and make things easy for myself.
Finish everything that has to be done back in Kuching and just let me enjoy my life!
FUCK THE WHOLE WORLD!
I HATE IT!!

Because of this i couldn't join my friends from college who are in Kuching now..
Because of this i couldn't take care of myself.
Because of this i couldn't do anything...
Nothing nothing, this is all a waste of time for me.
You think I'm happy?
Look at me all deaf both ears now, still sick, having cough and flu that never stop for more than a month already and how can i have enough rest?

I CAN GO CRAZY ONE DAY...
FUCK YOU ALL FUCK THE UNIVERSE FUCK AND FUCK AND FUCK!
I WANT TO KILL PEOPLE AGAIN!

I want to be Saw's successor and kill everyone that made my life so fucking miserable.

And the list of them to be killed, i have it already..
and guess what?
Both my ears are deaf now.
I am going to die.

Right now, I am sure my ears are blocked due to the cold I have for the past 4 weeks.
Googled about remedies for ear congestion... found out that a lot had the same experience.
Blocked ears for 3 months...went for check up and found out it was due to eustachian tube glued together and many more worse cases I read.
WHAT EUSTACHIAN TUBE GLUED TOGETHER..?
OH MY GOD.. i am so scared now.
Tomorrow I'm flying to JB again to take care of my niece again..
How am i supposed to help myself?
I want to cry now...

And they have a son now with the name given: Zachary Jackson Levon Furnish-John


Quote from Yahoo!:

The music superstar met Furnish, a film director and producer, in October 1993 at a dinner party held at his home. "He was very well dressed, very shy," John says of their first meeting. Noting that he was "instantly" attracted to Furnish, the singer says their relationship took off from there. "The next night we had dinner...We fell in love very quickly."

John proposed to Furnish in 2005 and the two married in a civil ceremony on December 21, 2005, the first day that civil partnerships could be performed in England, in the town of Old Windsor. The pair work hard to keep their relationship strong. "Every Saturday for 16 years, we've sent each other a card," John told Parade earlier this year. "No matter where we are in the world, to say how much we love each other."

A good start for the year...I am so happy.
Hahaha..people say:

"WHATEVER HAPPENS ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE YEAR IS WHAT YOU WILL EXPERIENCE MOST FOR THE WHOLE YEAR"

So...be grateful today.