Living Like Animals

i am suffering today each day since last monday... i cant help it.. memorizing the forum script is too hard for me.. i cant... i cant.... my tone is too rough... i look too serious.. not suitable for that forum.. but i have too... today i memorized the whole thing and tried practicing my speech.. ehhhmm speech or watever.. im just aargh... naturally look rough and serious i cant help it... unless i go through plastic surgeries! oooo..i dont wanna.. anything... i ll just have to face it... do it.. say it.. get over it... enjoy it.. and wow.. im nervous now.. its this thursday and im still not ready.. not confident enough to face this to go up on stage look feminine talk softly politely...im not having a problem of not being me especially on stage and during presentation... im afraid ill spoil the whole team.. and lost.. but i must gain confidence.. wait gain confidence.. wateverlaaaa... amy gonna do it.. amy gonna face it.. amy gotta go on stage.. amy gotta control her feelings.. amy gotta be confident.. amy cannot be nervous.. ive always had stage fright... aaaaaahh... i ll habe to do i.. for the sake of teacher.. i need to be detailed with every sentence i say..during the forum.. explicit.!!!!!!!! man tuesday we will present th forum in 4s2 and wednesday in our class... omg,... im so nervous especially in front of all my frenz.... eeee.ee... coz they will see a different amy... on that day.. another side of me that no one ever seen before...haaaaaa.... ill speak fluently.. bahasa baku... veery good bm.. with expressions... hands up and down side to side ... round and round.. aaaaahhh so malu..... eeeeee some more any teachr might come in and judge us... omg.. pricipal.. pk.. or anyone.. omgosh!